my boyfriend, who has ednos, is now worrying about my anorexia. i purged the other day, and i told him about it. he said i should tell my therapist i’ve relapsed. he said he doesn’t want me to get too thin, and not be cute and warm and cuddly anymore. it wouldn’t be the same he said. so now, i have nobody, accept my blog, to talk to about this. because we promised each other we would both not try lose anymore weight. i hate this. i’m breaking a promise to my beautiful, loving boyfriend, i’m lying to the person i love. i don’t want to do this, but i have to.